Just Can't Win, etc

I was submitting my traditional pictures to some groups, and they're like, we can't accept your picture because there's smudges, and the picture isn't clean, yadda, yadda, you can clean it up on computer software ..all that stuff. So I started to do that - when I scanned the picture on, I would clean it up. I recently was reading the rules for ANOTHER group, and some of the rules weren't very clear to me, so I asked, you know, is it okay for me to clean up my traditional pictures? And they said NO, because..I'm making the picture not what it is!!!!! I want to go running and screaming and tearing my hair out. What can I do, to make these people happy?????? I just. can't. win!!!!!!


So the past several Sundays, we have been going to the church that one of my professors does. I know it sounds weird, going to the same church as a professor, but he's cool. If there was anyone I would want to go to church with, it would be him. As it turns out, some people I used to know go to his church, also, some friends of my sisters. Also, some band members of the Christian rock band The Wrecking. (Just found that one out today). Anyways. This is finally a church that I don't feel uncomfortable, one where I feel like maybe I can get to know the people, and maybe trust them. Maybe feel safe again, like I haven't in a church since the last church that hurt so bad. Maybe here, I can start again.


Speaking of starting again, I have, almost, a job!! Someone from my old church messaged me on facebook, and said that if I was still looking for a job, and that if I was, she was working at a place, and she could get me an in. It's going to be a hard job - taking care of grown mentally disabled men - but it's something to challenge me while I wait to go back to school, and it's something to get me started on my future. It pays ten dollars an hour, starting wage. So hey, it'd be something. A hard something, but something. But yeah, she said that she will be the one to interview me, and she'd hire me in a heartbeat, so it looks like I basically have myself a job!!!!! You guys have no idea how much this will mean to me. I love being home, and being able to spend even more time with my family. But I'm going stir crazy, and I need something to do. Something somethingsomethingsomethingsomethingsomething. This will give me something. It'll leave me exhausted, but then maybe I'll be able to sleep. Who knows?


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there are so many other awesome photos out there!!!!!! these are just a few, hope you enjoy!!!! Maybe I'll do more sometime.